Hello dear readers, sorry I have not posted in a while. I have been living. Before, I was just surviving, but now after a few months on medication and therapy, I am finally enjoying my life again. It's been a process, and I am enjoying it. I don't know for how long I'll be on … Continue reading Living
I have been admiring, and inspired by many people recently, especially women that have achieved things that I would love to achieve, but that seem impossible for me to achieve. I am self-conscious, I doubt myself, and probably I feel more confident when I perform "bad" (according to myself) than when I do well… maybe … Continue reading Admiring others
New year, new dreams, new thoughts. Gratitude
Hello dear reader, I wish you a happy new year 2023. Today I want to reflect about this past year. I went through a lot of new experiences, both pleasant and unpleasant. I experienced depression and the thought of dying was not that unreasonable for me. I really felt hopeless. I didn't know how bad … Continue reading New year, new dreams, new thoughts. Gratitude
Wow, it's been a while since my last post. A lot has been going on, and I'm basically absorbed by school. But here I am at 1 a.m. in the morning, awake because my evening nap affected my sleep cycle. The last time I wanted to post I just left it as a draft, so … Continue reading Getting better
I don't know if you have read my previous posts, but I've been describing how depressed I feel. I tried really hard for about a year to overcome the loophole of negative that drowns me. I tried therapy for a while and it helped but then it didn't, podcast, meditation, exercise, writing... And although it … Continue reading Healthy mind
Looking for introverts
Today I was looking for a post to read. I wanted to hear stories about people like us, the unknown readers and writers. Us, who consider writing a hobby and perhaps a passion, but that prefer or maybe involuntary remain hidden. I want to hear from introverted people like me because this is the way … Continue reading Looking for introverts
Post-Pandemic Depression (could it be?)
I am not sure if I can say we are over the COVID-19 pandemic, but since cases are lower and many people have already been vaccinated it is probably that we are safer. However, now it looks like there's a new pandemic, a mental health one. I see everywhere people depressed, in person, among my … Continue reading Post-Pandemic Depression (could it be?)
Recognizing the Goodness in Life
I have been focusing on the negative lately, and that is not good for my mental health. I have been seeing everything dark, obscure, sad, and I don't like being and feeling like this. So, today I want to focus on the good things. I graduated from my Associate's degree in Liberal Arts General Studies … Continue reading Recognizing the Goodness in Life
What are we?
I wonder how our mind works, and how different the thought process is from one person to another. I wonder what goes in your mind, you person reading this. What do you think when you are in the shower or in the gym treadmill, or what crosses your mind when you listen to your favorite … Continue reading What are we?
I don't like anxiety because it feels like being trapped in your own head. I don't like feeling trapped. Perhaps I am afraid of that feeling, and that is the reason for my unlike ability of routine. Routine for me is a threat because it makes me feel bored, and disengaged, and if I feel … Continue reading Anxiety
So this is how depression feels like
It's been a week already. At first I thought it was jetlag, after my vacation. Then I thought it might be covid, then pregnancy. I could be thinking of more and more explanations but so far it feels like depression. I couldn't get up from my bed one day, I did not brush my teeth, … Continue reading So this is how depression feels like
I have set up the goal to write weekly so here I am, looking for ideas or what to say. I'm currently on vacation from school and I've been feeling a little anxious, but I don't know why. It looks like my mind likes wandering and worrying in it's free time, and right now it … Continue reading Hello 2022!