Hello 2022!

I have set up the goal to write weekly so here I am, looking for ideas or what to say. I'm currently on vacation from school and I've been feeling a little anxious, but I don't know why. It looks like my mind likes wandering and worrying in it's free time, and right now it … Continue reading Hello 2022! →

Insomnia, finals…

I've been having insomnia for probably two weeks now. It's stress. I am studying undergrad, and since I am an adult student pursuing my second career, I take school seriously. I want to destress, so I was searching for some blog that made me feel better, but I was just finding stuff that said something … Continue reading Insomnia, finals… →

Scrambled thoughts part 2

Capitalism, Racism, Mysogyny. Those 3 topics are the current source of my anxiety. They are complex social problems and I feel dragged by them, I am a victim of their terrible acts. I have always said I am not interested in politics because I don't believe in democracy, I think that everything is just an … Continue reading Scrambled thoughts part 2 →

What is going on?

I have been feeling weird lately. I am afraid of women's stares. I feel like when they look at my eyes they are trying to decipher something. They are trying to find out if I am queer. I am not, but I feel uncomfortable with that situation. I have been avoiding men's staring at me … Continue reading What is going on? →

Scrambled thoughts

What do you do when you have a lot of things going on in your head? I feel like I've been like this before, before going to therapy. Now I solved those past problems I had but now I have new ones and they are clogged in my brain. I don't know where to start … Continue reading Scrambled thoughts →

The Afterlife

Have you ever wondered if there is an afterlife? Do you have any assumptions about it? How is it for you? What does it mean for you? Personally, I believe in it. I once had a dream where I was someone else and I had another name. When I woke up, that name was stuck … Continue reading The Afterlife →

You don’t need to read this

It's funny because my boyfriend knows that I have a blog and that I like writing but he never takes the time to go and read me. He spends most of the time by himself, playing in the computer. I have learned to live alone, to find what I like to do by myself, and … Continue reading You don’t need to read this →

January at home

It has been a while since my last post. I am having a good time with my family in Mexico, it feels good to be home, to be back. But, it kind of breaks my heart when my mom asks me to stay, I love her and I would love to see her often, but … Continue reading January at home →

Midnight thoughts

Hello everyone, it's been a while since my last post. But anxiety has brought me again. I need to let everything out. I've been worrying again, too much, I have muscle tension, headaches, trouble concentrating. But we are close, we almost get a vaccine, we almost survive. But I'm still afraid. I don't want to … Continue reading Midnight thoughts →

Magic words

Today I want to talk about the good things. I am proud of myself. I am a badass. I am a warrior that doesn't give up. I am happy of all my accomplishments; not all people are brave. However, I have proof myself that I am. I have been managing my adaptability. One year I … Continue reading Magic words →

A night with anxiety

It's been months since the last time I had anxiety, until today. I know my trigger is feeling unhealthy. Today I have what I think is a muscular pain and I also had a few irregular heartbeats. I remember the first time I felt that I was around 12 years maybe. I was scared and … Continue reading A night with anxiety →

Goodbye fake friends

Today I close a cycle. After 8 years getting to know people during my studies, after all those parties and hungovers, the time for a real relationship just began and I began discovering their true selves. Little by little it was revealing, I didn't agree with their values, with their point of view. And it … Continue reading Goodbye fake friends →