Capitalism, Racism, Mysogyny. Those 3 topics are the current source of my anxiety. They are complex social problems and I feel dragged by them, I am a victim of their terrible acts. I have always said I am not interested in politics because I don’t believe in democracy, I think that everything is just an act and people’s voice don’t count. But I have witnessed the opposite, so, when a lot of people speak against something, it works, but when there is only a couple of people it doesn’t. I am probably too ignorant I know, but I am interested in learning so I will accept my responsibility and keep informing myself more.
Capitalism, according to internet is “economic system in which private actors own and control property in accord with their interests, and demand and supply freely set prices in markets in a way that can serve the best interests of society.” Which I think it’s a lie. I don’t see society benefiting from capitalism. I just see and I am part of the people who work their asses off to afford rent but that’s it. I live in stress, I don’t have enough time to have fun. After work I feel drained, without energy to do anything else. This is clearly not working for society. And then the marketing campaigns and strategies try to make you buy, and buy and buy and keep buying. They pay you a ridiculous small amount for working for them and they want you to buy their products and it doesn’t make sense. I do not see any benefit to me, only to those at the top. And there’s nothing I can do about it. At least not to change the economic system. But I can find ways to contribute to small businesses instead, and that’s what I am gonna do. I will try to buy less, only the necessary, and I will use my money to buy my happiness. I will travel.
I don’t know what else I will do besides that, but I will keep looking for ways to avoid the feeling of being used, and exploited for making a CEO and a company richer. I hope money would be used for really important things like mental health. A lot of suicides are committed for people working under these conditions and economic system, and I don’t think it is a casualty. We are humans, not machines. We have more to contribute to society than selling and producing. Sometimes I imagine what would people have done if they were not trapped in a cycle of poverty. What if they had all the support needed to succeed, all the variables in their favor? Because I see that most of successful people and inventors were born surrounded by love, money and good environment. Not poverty, not violence, not lack. I wish all people could be what they dreamed of. But not everyone has that privilege.